Fool of fools!

Here I sit staring at my computer about a week after a near hit collision. Not with a car mind you, but with the same sin I had struggled against a while ago ... the one that caused my life to change.

Why would I be so foolish and blind to think that I can enter into a danger zone . . . at first, I thought things would be fine. But they had escalated quickly - right in front of my eyes! I wasn't even aware of the stupidity of which I had entered until the other person did. I am glad she caught it before it got bad, however . . . that leave me still with a puddle of sin that I need to clean.

My wife had reminded me of a passage in Ezekiel I believe that had stated that the "heart was wicked, who can know it?". Man that is me. I can't trust myself! My eyes tend to see whatever I want them to see . . . this has been good in some cases where my optimism has inspired others, but placed in the wrong direction (Me) they no longer inspire others, but hurt and offend. Not on purpose, but definitely a casualty nonetheless.

I truly thank God that I have such a great and understanding wife who forgives. Her arms were willing to hold me in my sin-state, but still firm in her hatred towards my sin. She has a good balance of seeing sin as it is and placing it as a part of me, but not the whole of me.

So now I am again, at the point in my life where I need to re-evaluate my motives in all relationships to see if my self-centeredness has crept in unaware.

God help me!