this used to be . . . the place to express the things I don't say with my mouth

. . . still desiring?

'Creatures are not born with desires unless satisfaction for those desires exist. A baby feels hunger; well, there is such a thing as food. Men feel sexual desire; well, there is such a thing as sex. If I find in myself a desire, which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probably explanation is that I was meant for another world. If none of my earthly pleasures satisfy it, that does not mean that the universe is a fraud. Probably earthly pleasures were never meant to satisfy it, but only to arouse it, to suggest the real thing.'
--C.S. Lewis, Mere Christianity

What an incredible thought!

To think that all of the things that we have within our grasp here on earth, will not satisfy is intense. If you think about, does anything really satisfy? Don't we still have this desire for more.

Even as a follower of Christ, I have recognized that at times, I yearn . . I want. Truly, it is when I turn my directions/face/life/world back towards Jesus to rearrange, THAT is when I find peace and satisfaction.

In a previous life (a mere two+ years ago) there were times when I would spend days contemplating a passage of scripture. Wrestling with God on what to say about the passage before others. I loved it! I loved seeking out wisdom and the struggle of forcing my mind to understand it (rather than trying to fit IT into my mind).

I so long again for those days when my mind will not be so filled with clutter and busy-ness. When I could spend time lingering with Jesus.